I remember the first time i watched Glee. It was the first episode and i couldn't stop myself from crying. I could never be myself. And i was going through the same feelings as the characters from Glee in that episode. Feelings of loneliness and denial and being left out and not being popular or being able to be who you are. For days i didn't touch the DVDs i had bought just because i felt the series would make me depressed. But i continued watching and then i couldn't stop myself. The series made me feel so good about myself and i felt like i was on the top of the world and i could do anything. I used to feel like i was the only guy who was a loser and all other people and guys in my school are better than me. I am nothing. And i can never be any good. But Glee helped me feel better about myself. And it taught me to never stop believing.
Though i will admit i sometimes forget this, and feel low but who doesn't :D
Well, today i watched the first episode of the third season and i saw how depression can change you in either a good way or a bad way. On one side, depression can lead you to being a person who does drugs, dresses dark and acts like who doesn't care when in fact the insides are burning and who wants to be happy and be who he or she is and follow the dreams. Then there is the person who get's a blow and is hit a million times, but never gives up on him/herself and follows his or her heart and stands back on the feet whenever fallen down. It all depends on how you see stuff and how you react to it.
In one scene, the main character goes to a college orientation and when she goes into the place, she sees so many students just like her, or maybe even better than her. And it broke her down. She started losing faith in herself and wanted to give up. But a very good friend helped her see through it all in a positive way and told her not to give up. And i saw myself in her. So many times i run into people who are onto being the person i wanna be and they are way way better than me. It brings me down. And i go into a fall of depression and i wanna be the drugee. But after seeing this episode of Glee, i realized that with a little faith in yourself and your abilities and the touch of a friend, you can stand on your feet and be on your way to being whoever and whatever you wanna be. It's all up to you. You can either stand in the dark and watch the people dancing on stage OR you can be the one dancing on the stage!
All you need is to believe. Believe that you will make it through because you are you. No one is who you are and no one can ever be who you are. You will find your way. AND THEY CAN'T STOP THE BEAT!
All you need to do is keep playing. Cuz even though a piano may be broken, it still makes music :)
, by Haseeb Sultan